My so called life....

I find that life is so absurd...yes I guess I've been one of the disciples of Albert Camus. Life is absurd and why not commit suicide? But then I must have only used this as an escape goat....to save myself the pain and burden of making the most out of my life. I didn't read the whole essay completely and made myself contented with the first few startling statemets. Until recently...something urged me to read further. And so I read....and read again...until i completely grasp its true essence. I figured out that my initial perception on this was wrong. Life is absurd....completely right but then because of this we should bring out the best in life. We shouldn't be satisfied with the absurdity of it nor should we escape it by commiting suicide.