Questions

I am completely drowned with so many questions that I don't know know if its worth asking anymore. Then I just suddenly stop, erase the other and let this single question linger in my mind. Maybe this was the root of all of this. Maybe this was my reason for this suffering.

"Why is it that Im still doubting about HIM"?

Then again a million question travel inside my head in more than 100 per second. Answers were nowhere again. Confusion is reigning in, on, and between me. Back to square one.

All my patience is sucked by the bitterness. The enthusiasm they say has long been gone and used up. Hopes are not born in this miserable body of mine. I don't believe in superman. Time is fleeing away with my life.

If anyone knows what to do in this moment please tell me. I've been suffering for a lifetime already and I'm afraid that I might not hold on for long . I need you who ever you are, whatever you are, where you are.

I need myself back.

Im almost dying


(my note in fb)