crawling up, biT by bit

Slowly but surely, here I go. At first an unsociable person who is a nobody at a classroom, not talking, not interacting. Now slowly the fears are now fading away. I used to say I’m a worthless human being, I have no purpose and sometimes I curse myself for being here on earth thinking I brought madness to mankind. Realizing my negative attitudes and mistakes, I tried to improve and reinvent and renew myself. Listening what Miss Ness is saying everyday made me realize that I should never put myself down, it just happens that I can relate to something she said, it’s like she’s describing me or what.

I’m slowly overcoming one of my #1 weakness, being unsociable. Its effortless at all making friends and adjusting to this section, all I can say is they’re to great, and my mind is just a quarter of theirs. They all know something about something, but like my mother always say, there’s this special thing within me. That I guess is my knowledge about technology specifically the internet.

Overcoming a obstacle seems to be a great achievement for me, no matter how small or big it is, It is still an achievement. Now, I laugh at what I used to do in my past years, especially when I tried to kill myself. Now I read inspirational books that if I had a hundred reasons to die, I should have a hundred one or more reasons to live, and now I guess I have more reasons to live doubled or even tripled the reasons why I want to die. Knowing there is more to life that to struggle made me realize one thing, it is that I should have live the past much enjoyable. Too bad the past isn’t available for changes anymore. Only now what I can think about is either the present and welcoming the future